the first day of school! always such a celebration in mongolia...we love being part of it...
but this year these sights and sounds served as a sobering reminder of change.
this year we won't be part of the festivities...
this year we are planning to uproot and head north to serve in the little village of khatgal for a few months.
we couldn't be more sure it's what the Lord has for us right now...or more unsure of why. [we've learned those details come later...if ever...]
our lives are characterized by letting go...i could never have fully understood how much so when 'send me. i'll go' first escaped my lips.
one might think a surrender like that...packing up and moving to mongolia...is it...you're covered...for like...life. one might have to think again...
it was only the beginning...and [looking back]...the easy part.
no. a surrender like that is the first [naive little] step into a lifetime of opening clenched fists and releasing their death grip on familiarity...clarity...
a lifetime of roots that can never dig too deep [and soon learn not to]...because the upheaval of circumstances [not to mention ideas and expectations] is a regular occurrence.
am i wired for things like connection.belonging.community.home? absolutely!
these roots within me want to [are created to] dig in.dig down.grow wide and deep and strong. they want to connect.to bond.to stay...and it seems as though i'm denied the chance. but the beauty is this: these roots [when they find no solid ground around them] are forced to grow upward. they discover that in an ever-changing landscape they can be firmly planted in only one.constant.unchanging soil...
...God...
no matter what transitions i face [within or without]...His character.promises.Word...remain. i've seen it.proved it.lived it...time and time again...
and there's no end in sight.
honestly i wouldn't want it any other way [well...maybe some days...but you know...bigger picture and all that]. this journey i'm on forces me to find hope.strength.courage.clarity.comfort...my solid ground...only in Him...
there is.nothing.else.
and i'm learning [again...and again]
He's really all there ever was...
'...blessed are those who trust in the LORD and have made the LORD their hope and confidence. They are like trees planted along a riverbank, with roots that reach deep into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves stay green, and they go right on producing delicious fruit.'
Jeremiah 17:7-8
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If the last 6 years was training for what lies ahead, you're going to do GREAT! Know that you, Chris, Abby, and CJ have the most widespread and committed fan club/prayer group that anyone could ever ask for. We've got your back! Now GO!
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